Favorite lyrics - Rise Against Version
buttfroth

I discovered Rise Against when I was watching PVP videos at the advent of when WoW got popular. The energy of the band was great at fueling PVP RAGE.......... 0.0; But it wasn't really just the energy, but the lyrics were something different. Although the group is very anti-war and all about social reform, I never really looked at it that way. Just music that could elicit emotions and thoughtfulness. They have some best choruses I've heard.

I remember going to the concert in 2009 with two coworkers. While they shared pot with this random stranger, I just drank a little beer they gave. They had this gold flake liquor that they were sharing with each other and I acted like I tried some, but I poured/spitted it out when they weren't looking. I very much enjoyed the concert. Sang all the songs. I was surprised they chose to play "Everchanging" which is one of my favorite acoustic songs they've done. After the concert was over, I didn't listen to them for months. Pretty burnt at that point. I wonder if it'd be the same if I went to a Fray or Coldplay concert. I can't imagine going to a Taylor Swift concert...

"All gave some; Some gave all"

"What you don't understand is that it's better to die on your feet than to live on your knees."
"You had it backwards. It's better to live on your feet than to die on your knees."

"I know I've been gone for what seems like forever, but I'm here now waiting"

"We are the ones who kept quiet and always did what we were told."

"If love is a labor I'll slave till the end, I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand"

"I walk on wounds that seldom prove to slow me down. I laugh this constant pain away"

"The promise of safe return undelivered; The ocean is wider than I first guessed; When roads disappeared, I followed the rivers; But somehow got in over my head so deep I felt taken"

"As we were, so perfect, so happy. They'll remember, only our smiles 'cause that's all they've seen."

" 'This is what's best, for me, for you, for us,' or maybe just for me I thought"

"Then she was crying. Then she was shouting. Then I was shouting. Now pouring confessions, having no answers, or solutions; We barely even knew the questions."

"These machines feed on the tears of broken lives and dying dreams; We're throwing wrenches in the gears; Our lives will not be lived in vain"

"Now the lines are drawn; Is this feeling gone? The best parts of this have come and gone... And now that is all this is"
"With the reasons clear, we'll spend another year without direction, full of fear; But now things will be different"
"There's nothing simple when it comes to you and I; Always something in this everchanging life"

"Now something has kept me here too long and now I'm gone"

"I can still remember the words and what they meant... As we etched them with our fingers in years of wet cement"

"I looked up and saw you. I know that you saw me. We froze but for a moment...In empathy"

"I brought down the sky for you but all you did was shrug;You gave my emptiness a name"

"But we ran away; now all my friends are gone. Maybe we've outgrown all the things that we once loved. Runaway....but what are we running from? A show of hands from those in this audience of one; Where have they gone?"

"Life for you's been less than kind; so take a number, stand in line; We've all been sorry, we've all been hurt; But how we survive, is what makes us who we are"

"These worlds collide but the distance remains"

"Inside my hands these petals browned, dried up, fallen to the ground;But it was already too late now"
"I pushed my fingers through the earth; Returned this flower to the dirt; So it could live, I walked away now."

"All because of you, I believe in angels; Not the kind with wings; No, not the kind with halos; The kind that bring you home when home becomes a strange place. I'll follow your voice. All you have to do is shout it out. "

"And I can't tell if you're laughing; Between each smile there's a tear in your eye; There's a train leaving town in an hour; It's not waiting for you, and neither am I"

"Is this the life that you lead, Or the life that's lead for you?"


End of the world
buttfroth
Occasionally it's fun to think about if the world "end".

Part of me wouldn't have mind if it ended. When I booked my trip, I think I was thinking at the prospects of what would have happened. My flight was at 12:15AM today. My original thinking was if the world did end, I would end up either safe or the first to die, depending if the end came from the sun, ocean, electrical black out, etc. If the world did not end, I get to see my family. Either way there was something to anticipate.

I decided to pack a first aid kit and an extra set of clothes last minute before I left although I chuckle a lil at that now. I also filled a USB drive with memories and files important to me.

The day continued without fail. There was so much that needed to be done, that I didn't really think about it.

If a digital game is deleted from the server, did it ever exist?
buttfroth
City of Heroes, is a game I never played. Yet, I feel kind of bummed that this game is now shutting down. A comment in Kotaku reminded me of things I've thought regarding the medium:

"A lot of people want games to be considered art just as movies are. The
fact that games just cease to exist though is a major problem for that.
How can we save games for future generations, especially now that a lot
is online based. Hardware dies, services die, games disappear."

The only english class I passed in college was one where I wrote a paper about how I considered video game as the first interactive art and in order for the medium to progress, we need to evolve the way we interact with it. This was partly an argument of why I thought the Wii was a necessary step forward for gaming.

A video game's server shutting down is akin to death in the video game world. All you have left are memories. People move on.

It's interesting to think that a perhaps a digitally released only game would become lost and no one would experience it.

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buttfroth


Original / Romaji LyricsEnglish Translation
chiisa na koto de daiji na mono ushinatta
tsumetai yubiwa ga watashi ni hikattemiseta
"ima sae areba ii" to itta kedo  sou ja nakatta
anata e tsuzuku doa ga oto mo naku kieta
I've lost something important because of small things
The cold ring showed its glimmer to me
I said, "All I need is today," but that wasn't the case
The door to you vanished without a sound
anata no shiawase negau hodo  wagamama ga fueteku yo
soredemo anata wo hikitometai  itsu datte sou
dareka no negai ga kanau koro  ano ko ga naiteru yo
sono mama tobira no oto wa naranai
The more I wish for your happiness, the more selfish I become
But still, I want you to stay, and I always did
When someone's wish comes true, she'll be crying
That way the door won't make a sound
minna ni hitsuyou to sareru kimi wo iyaseru tatta hitori ni
naritakute sukoshi gaman shi sugita na
I wanted to become the only one who can heal you, who is needed by everyone,
and I've endured it a little too much
jibun no shiawase negau koto  wagamama dewa nai desho
sore nara anata wo dakiyosetai  dekiru dake gyutto
watashi no namida ga kawaku koro  ano ko ga naiteru yo
kono mama bokura no jimen wa kawakanai
To wish for own happiness is not selfish, right?
If that's so, I want to hold you as tight as I can
When my tears dry up, she'll be crying
That way, the ground under us won't dry up
anata no shiawase negau hodo  wagamama ga fueteku yo
anata wa watashi wo hikitometai  itsu datte sou
dareka no negai ga kanau koro  ano ko ga naiteru yo
minna no negai wa douji ni wa kanawanai
The more I wish for your happiness, the more selfish I become
But you never hold me back, you never did
When someone's wish comes true, she'll be crying
Everyone's wishes can't be granted at once
chiisa na chikyuu ga mawaru hodo  yasashisa ga mi ni tsuku yo
mou ichidido anata wo dakishimetai  dekiru dake sutto
As the small earth rotates, I learn to become more kind
I want to hug you once more, as soft as I can

(source: http://www.animelyrics.com/jpop/utada/darekanonegai.htm)

Can't Stop.
buttfroth
It's Midnight, your tired drunk voice
2:00 a.m., the abruptly ended phone call

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Have you ever been in love before?
Falling at first sight, like in the movies?
Spent the entire night talking on the phone?
Bragged to the entire world?
Waited in the pouring rain?
Run like crazy to the one you love?
Secretly guarded?
Gone crazy?
Pretended not to see when you really did?

Im sure you have been in love
Spent all your money on your anniversary
Apologized even when you didnt do anything wrong
Spent entire days writing love letters

Pushed back promises with your family
Prayed to God for that persons health
Ignored your friends
Missed them
Guarded their leaving figure

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Had your makeup wash off in the pouring rain?
Cut your long hair?
Started smoking again?
Avoided areas where they might be?
Wrote letters you know you would never send?
Called them while you were drunk?
(Hello?)
Had your lips freeze up

Im sure you've had a broken heart
Hated them as much as you loved them
Ripped up letters you didnt read
Deleted the phone number you will never forget
Celebrated anniversaries by yourself
Burned all the photographs
Thought every song about heartbreak in the world was yours

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Cry like an idiot
Get drunk again
Hold on to your friend
And curse that person

Time passes
Get drunk again
Grab the phone
Say love!

Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Nobody knows my heart
In reality, only you don't know
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
As I live my life, Im sure I'll see you again

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buttfroth
Recalling the asian girl that missed her flight to korea. Asian guy too.


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So True
buttfroth
"I don't feel like I've missed out on anything worthwhile since closing my account. Outside of a few close friends and family members, I doubt most of the 300+ people on my friends list will even notice I'm gone. It shows how disconnected we all are in such a connected world." Source: http://www.techspot.com/article/564-deleted-facebook-account/

Final Distance
buttfroth
I don't explain my feelings very well some times, so I like to use music to express how I am feeling. Looking through past music, I decided to check the english translation for this Utada song and it really speaks to me. It's beautiful. I've always liked this song, but I could tell the lyrics had real meaning to it.
http://youtu.be/_6Y6CsnFw44
Original / Romaji LyricsEnglish Translation
Ki ni naru noni kikenai
Oyogitsukarete  kimi made mukuchi ni naru

I'm anxious but I can't say anything
I'm tired of swimming, even you've become silent

Aitai noni mienai nami ni osarete
Mata sukoshi tooku naru

I want to see you, but an invisible wave pushes us
Again, just a little more distance

Togirenai you ni keep it going baby
Onaji kimochi janai nara tell me
Muri wa shinai shugi demo
Sukoshi nara shite mite mo ii yo

Try not to stop keep it going baby
If you don't feel the same then tell me
Even if your principle is to not try
It's alright to try a little

I wanna be with you now
Futari de distance chijimete
Ima nara maniau kara
We can start over
Hitotsu ni wa narenai

I wanna be with you now
Let's shorten the distance with the two of us
We can still make it on time
We can start over
We can't be as one

I wanna be with you now
Itsu no hi ka distance mo
Dakishimerareru you ni nareru yo
We can start sooner
Yappari I wanna be with you

I wanna be with you
Someday even this distance
We'll be able to embrace
We can start sooner
After all I wanna be with you

Hito koto de konna ni mo kizutsuku kimi wa
Kodoku wo oshiete kureru

You, who gets hurt with a single word
taught me what loneliness is

Mamorenai toki keep on trying, baby
Yakusoku doori janai kedo trust me
Muri wa shinai shugi demo
Kimi to nara shite mite mo ii yo

When you can't protect me keep on trying baby
It's not as I promised but trust me
My principle is to not try but
I would do it for you

I wanna be with you now
Futari de distance mitsumete
Ima nara maniau kara
We can start over
Kotoba de tsutaetai

I wanna be with you now
Look at our distance with the two of us
We can still make it
We can start over
I want to tell you with words

I wanna be with you now
Sono uchi ni distance mou
Dakishimerareru you ni nareru yo
We should stay together
Yappari I need to be with you


I wanna be with you now
One day, even the distance
I'll be able to embrace
We should stay together
After all, I need to be with you

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buttfroth
I was driving family and this random coworker(Who has a kid) I used to know at the airline. I was driving on a beach side road. All of a sudden we approached this steep downward hill up and down it seemed almost made of just sand. I started driving down it but I stopped because I was afraid all the weight would make our car unstoppable and heavy.

Everyone got out and we walked for a little bit. It was strange as people were around the beach. Not many. They seemed lost. I was looking around for a safe way to take the car down, I saw the wheels of this other car. After staring it for some time, I realized it's actually another car but it was covered in sand as if abandoned. 

I see some shelter not too far away, but I decided for my family and coworker to walk to it while I drove the car to there. My dad was wondering why? And I had to YELL at him to get him to understand. Because of the weight of the passengers and the seemingly soft terrain, I did not want anyone in the car should it slip and fall into the ocean or get stuck eternally into the ground.

I had a similar dream before with the sinking ground on the beach. I was in a car with all my sisters. we were driving and we decided to drive onto the sand on the beach. once we passed into the sand terrain, our car started to sink rapidly. It was like quick sand and we were trapped with no one to save us.

My dad understood and everyone walked to the shelter. Luckily everyone made it safe and the car was okay. We rested a bit in the shelter. For some reason, I don't recall all the family members with me aside from parents and this one latino coworker I used to work with. I was checking on the coworker on how she was doing and she mentioned that every time I talked to her I was blushing. Then I started to blush. She showed me her sunglasses and told me to put them on. Which I did. My dad was sitting next to me probably thinking" oooh you gonna marry a latino girl". In real life, my dad likes to joke that I'll marry a latino girl or a redneck girl. 

I started to hear a rumbling sound and all of a sudden lava started to rise. me and another family member was rushing people to get out. It was too late for some but we kept trying to run away from it. but where ever we ran lava started to come up. We could escape. Everyone was soon engulfed in lava and the camera panned out to another character.

This character was like batman almost but he was alone. He was in some facility trying to break in but he saw the lava rise all around the city. The dream continued but it was relevant to me.

I tried so hard to make sure my family would be safe, but everyone still died in the end. it is like no matter what I do matter what I do, things will turn out the same in the end. Not specific to family but a general theme in life.

For a positive theme, I did overcome my fear of being buried alive for the sake of my loved ones. I drove the car with the risk of falling into the ocean or into the sand.

Maturing
buttfroth
In the past, My take on maturing is that you gain more self control emotionally. If we look at children, they have less restraints on their emotions. But does self control come at the cost of other things? your imagination? creativity? Are these replaced by knowledge and wisdom?

If I can recall this excerpt from a book I didn't finish reading, what makes us different from other species is we think about the past and future.  Animals think about the present.

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